If i were wrong
could you sing a song?
A song that prove i was right
to behold all that i see within the silence of night.
A song that bring forth the light
should i ever seize my mouth and start write?

If you were wrong,
would you sing me a song?
About how dragon fancies it mating flight,
Or perhaps how they embrace each night,
May be you could sing to me of their height
Or with it how they seldom fight?

If we were wrong,
Could we sing out this song?
Of a million stars shining against the broken of blue,
How I gaze into your eyes, so deep and mystical too?
A song about a heartbeat that beats as one so true?
Pray the day, should i ask,are we to say i do?

Even if we were wrong,
would it change much of the song?
About a dragon and his partner of opal hue,
Embraced their flight as they higher flew,
A mystical air that surrounds them both, i knew
we cant stay angry like this, lets remain happy like them.

ribcage of my mind

Fallen glass and shattered spectrums;
Fallen dreams and dusty plectrums;
Rotting rainbow most beloved;
Rusty faces, soil has covered;
Filthy screams and curled eyelashes;
Fuming head and pretty gashes;
All these pieces fill the ribcage-
THEY MAKE UP MY MIND.

happiness

Happiness is a cycle,
It comes from love
and flows with joy.
It comes and goes as it please,
flowing through your day like disease.
do you feel happy every day and night?
I doubt you might.
As i walk through my hallway
I wonder am i truely happy each day?

Fryday

Thursdays just dont count and
words dont mean twice as much.
Thursdays dont work like fridays
It's May and it's a friday.
It's May and it's a friday.

It was 2 years ago,
it was 3 months ago.
it was.

Friday to him means inhale,inhale,inhale.
to her skull,skull,floor.
to them party, party,party, crash.
to other her, study,study,study,nap.

Friday ends and the week will still roll on,
between his fingers,
between her lips,
between the sheets.
You either wake up tommorow
or you don't.

Uncertain

look before you leap,
Better safe than sorry.
Prevention is better than cure...
A stiching time saves nine...
but, he who dares wins.
Don't count your chickens
Better to have loved and lost.
Conflicting informations, advices
and proverbs.

Here iam at the crucible,
Unsure of where i stand.
Do i err on the side of caution?
or do i keep aiming for the moon
to land among the stars.

mocking life

Birds are telling me
i should sleep.
I'm considering it,
assuming their intentions are pure.
Still i dont know what pure is,
other than a mocking theory.

Darkness is the hardest

I felt the warmth of your breath
brush on the nape of my neck,
and the weight of your hand
rest own my shoulders,
But i know you were never there
So why do i feel damn alone?

I felt your hands stroke my own
and smelled your skins soft bouquet,
But i know that you were never there
so why do i feel damn betrayed?

I felt you fingers caress my hair,
and the beats of your heart,
wash away my pain,
But i know that you were never there
So why do i feel so damn insane?

Wasted nothing all this time

What if I end up being everything
you were trying to find?
I may, I never said I wasted anything
except my time expecting so much ,
expecting so much that i think i am gonna find
Open up my head now
and all i see is the memories.

what if i end up being nothing
you were afraid to find?
you could be broken
and i would be right there broken with you
Or you could be screaming
and I would be right there screaming with you.

If you wanna change the world
of this time and make it ours...
I would be right there by your side.
What if i turn up being everything
you were trying to find?

Cloudy paranoid

You are across the room,
But baby: you will never be closer.
I can feel your breath rippling on me.
and your smell- rusty and delicately sweet.
and then you look at me feverishly,
and then you are gone.
The light sweeps in through the windows
and you are a ghost that I wont see ever again.

Firm footing of a gay.

I'm not guy but...
I'm knott gay but...
I'm not gay butt...
I'm not ghey but...
Eye'm not a gay but...

I'm not a gay but I know how to feel love,
and lust and want.
I'm not a gay but I understand wanting
to spend life with someone.
I'm not gay but I want to be happy.
I'm not a homosexual, however...

...am a human being.
which gives me something in common with all of you.

Gay included.

The Tempress

Muse, muse, muse again and confuse.
Flames of desire tower high
and only a mist to quench.
Is the occassional whetting of the tongue worth
the burn ever-present?
some moments here and there.
A brain -racing,-folding,-twisting, -turning.
that defines and stops time.
Oh damn, God damn
What can I do next?
To restore bladness of normalcy?
Then to plunge into its depth.
and to fret over again!!!

The proud Addict

The proud addict.
A caricature.
Compensating for lack of substance -
with substances.
Denying reality by substituting other.
Cannot make sense,
so become senseless.
Celebrate self-inflicted demise
and call it a party.
Drinking from the punchbowl of death
in a slow, cultish,mass suicide.
Solace in knowing the outcome:
death by its own hands.

Get Out of My Head.

It's easy enough, isn't it?
Just block them out.
Pretend they're not real. They don't exist.
Don't think twice.
They are the others. The outsiders.The unfamiliar.
It's easy to block them out and imagine they are somewhat less than you are.
Faceless. Heartless. Immoral.
Evil and unclean.
Their destruction would be a justified holy act.
Their continued existance would be an anethema.
Or worst still. They wont' even register.
Your radar remains mute.
Their is nothing to notice. Nothing important than yourself.
Other people dont' count.
Even the closest to you barely register a blip on your screen.
Other people are outside. They are just the other.
No matter how hard you try.You cannot know who they are.
Now matter how much they reveal,they will always remain hidden.

Basically. Essentially.When you get down to it.
What I am trying to say is in the most gayest, most poetic way possible.
No matter how hard you try,
and no matter how much you think you know.
You will never ever truely know someone.
And they will never ever truely know you.

Other people will always be removed and
apart from who you are.
And thats' a large part of what makes life interesting.

I've seen the future, baby

I've seen the future.
I've seen mobile phones in the size of peanuts.
I've seen video games more realistic than life.
I've seen perfect sexual organs grown and
welded between the legs of rich and famous.
I've seen movies animated, written and conceived entirely
by the computers.
I've seen children starving in far away places.
I've seen 12 year old girls in lingre dancing to,
the repackaged disco songs and being asked their ,
opinions of art and its relation to cultural evolution
by impossibly clean cut men(!).
Anyone who can hold mirror to the past can see the future,
but it takes a open-hearted mind than I,
to like what they see.

In the fond memory of recession

photo courtesy-deviantart.com

I like to think that world has turned a page.
Or even opened an entire open book.
I'm hopeful .
But let's be honest.

Reality has a knack for crushing a man's dream.

Human beings have achieved much in the last few thousand years.
Fire, the wheel, language,clothing and electricity..
space exploration,genetics.
And because already we have done so much, I continue to hold out hope
that we will do more..
Much more.

Sure, it's easy to remain cynical. especially when all we
ever hear is bad news.
But bad things have always happened and
will continue to happen.
Somehow we've managed to rise above and
move beyond the horrors and limitations of
a corporeal existance.

I think it's upto each of us to do the best we can.

Yes, we can rebuild everything.
Yes, we can help the poor.
Yes we can eliminate hunger
Yes, we can cure disease
Yes, we can travel to stars
Yes, we can evolve
Yes having little deeds may not amount much to the cause.
But Iam hoping that it will at the very least be symbolic of something greater.

An era of rationality, love and hope.

I feel the world is changing and
the first time I feel it's changing in the right direction.

where did february go??

Damn... where did february go? I jus turned around and its' gone!!![ also this flipping blogger just ate some of my post] . It may be the reason why I dont update as often as I could. Blessed thing.Perhaps a Fairy will come by to helpout me in blogging.

okay, what did I have to say about my february... something about having 'law of inertia' and having lot of dreams to realise. I have been sitting empty headed for a quiet long time but still I did something which help my dreams I know.

I have charted out some resolutions( I belive in montly resolutions rather that yearly ones)
so here comes my resolutions
I decided-

* To react nicely to all those angry, irritated , fussy Faces around me.
*To be persistant. act g3 act. Action is your keyword while following dreams.
*To engage only( i emphasise only) in non-toxic arguments
*To not surrender my creative urge to write on blogs when i see blessed technical alerts in blog like "cud not contact blogger.com. saving and publishing may fail. Retrying..."

only this for march.

I love my Life.

Everyday

You are still there
everyday.

you are still bending over,
backwards,
forwards,
everyway you can.

Just to make it happen.
Just so one day.
may be
you will set yourself free.

Those were The Days...

I remember the school.
I remember good stuff.
I remember bad stuff.

I remember that time I took a beating' cause i was
smaller than the other guy and he could.
I remember the day when I accidently called my science teacher "amma"
I remember the hardships I used to face for no reasons at all.
I remember that time when i was 10 and that next-door-oldie tried to feel me up .
I remember being bold enough to slap that man.
I remember being too scared to adress the crowd.


If I knew then , what I know now, things would
have turned out quite different.
But If I knew then what I know now, I would not be
the girl I am today

food for thoughts in difficulties

* Do manage you situations. don't let yourself to be managed by situations.
* Think about your wonderful memories , affirm yorself that this situation wont last forever and it is just a passing cloud. ( tommorow this problem will pave way for other problems know? wink)
*Dont ,Please dont let this problem to create more problem in other phase of life. Ex-Dont let personal problem to create flaws in your work. -Dont mix up things-. otherwise you will be tangled by more and more problems.
more points will be added...

advantages of being a guy than a girl.

1- they can piss anywhere, even in road side( this point is the real motivation of this post)
2- if they flirt around, society is more likely to accept that fact with a it-happens attitude.
3- they can enjoy more freedom , both from home and society.
4 they have no fear of being raped, even if it happened they wont get pregnent.
5- they can show their enjoyment by removing their shirt when india wins the game.
6- Their arrogance, irritation and anger would be accepted by society more easily.
more points will be added by author lately..

g3 joke

"what is the different between stubborness and determination"? g3 asked.
" when you are doing something your way and succeed, that is determination" her soul repiled.
" when you do something your way and you failed, that's stubborness." her soul chuckled back.

Why are you troubled?

My heart why are you troubled?

Why is these darkness all around?

Why do you search for something that's

Never to be found?

Why do you cherish each bit of sunlight

and every moment filled with glee?

Why there is a lonely feeling?

Why is it I, myself and me?

How long will you run and hide?

How long will you pretend?

How far is your destiny?

When will these journey end???

LOVE....

"I love him but I cant call me as a lover". my heart wants to know why?
"You love him but you are not love"- soul replied.

"Be love. submit yourself to the trance of love, unconditionally . forget your self , forget the world. Dont count. Dont hesitate.. be free. free yourself in the hands of love then the cosmic soul will reveal the truth, the ultimate truth- the joy of being love itself. Then it radiates... when it shines, flaws vanish..when it whispers, you forget every pain"- soul adds

then it whispers-if you are in love , you may argue. from the moment you become love.. no more complaints wil be there .no more doubts no more conditions exist.nothing can bother you then. you just indulge in immense ecstacy. you will become ' eternal ecstacy'. your soul rests in total harmony.better be love than being in love.
be love .. be love! my soul sings again and again.

In the fond memory of a broken love..

On those early hours of morning,

when I awake half sleepy,

where blanket can't help me from the cold

and again his thought haunts me ...

and moreover, his love haunts me like a painful dream,

tears roll down like that shine like sharp piercing crystals of memories

in the early rays of sun. I am trying another day to forget those moments.

still... again and again.. his memories rushes in.. know y?

coz it is love.. in all true sense..

but intense love often hurts.. first it gives everything. later it retain nothing for us. It makes us to know each other to keep us far way. It shower dreams to shatter it later. It fills hopes in eyes to replace it with tears then.

When I had looked up at the sky before, I could see only romantic blue and feel the cool breeze.Nor did I notice those dark clouds. Nor did I expect that the breeze would turn into hurricanes. When I saw those twinkling stars, never did I notice that it was dark around like how the sky never was nor did I expect that I would be left in darkness one day, like how I failed to notice those thorns in roses.We only see the beauty in everything when we are in love, we know the darker side in fact but we dont care for it purposly.

I did love red rose once, so were those red rose which accompanied divine love but as I told before all the beautiful things pain me with his memories. I started avoiding those beautiful things like how my life lost it charm when he went away. I plead , I begged.. but my words are of no value now. It magnified my emotions once. But a million words couldnt bring him back. I know as I tried infinite times. my words worth nothing when the one who loved it once cares it no more. even a billion listners cannot compensate for that single listner.

Is it better to hate than love?(sometimes I doubt)- we hardly moist our eyes for one whom we hate but tear rolls out for love! An enemy ofcourse understand our hatred and hate us more than we hate them but a love fails to give back even a drop of love we gave... But still my dear, tears shed in love worth lot more than those empty plastic smiles devoid of love.

Sometimes I feel we shouldnt love some until we get them forever( quite bizzare). Why should we fetch our heart with despair and eyes with tears in those fond memories? Why should those tender dewdrops and cool breeze pain us in deep? Why should those rainy days make us feel all alone? Why should we hate to look up at the stars and roses? Why shoud we make ourselves hate all those beautiful thing once longed to be in the sight always? Yet, to be in love and to be loved, can give a bouquet of lovely memories that lingers it fragrance forever.

To my ' one and "only one" @ life.com

...

In the journey Iam on

You are my 'one'

Yea, my one and only 'one'

........

When sun shine on top

I will be your shade.

When troubles do unfold.

I will be on your side.

...........

When you hold my hand

I know, you are the 'one'

Yea my one and only one

...

When I close my eyes.

Its only you stands there.

We we'll build life together.

We 'll share same roof

and it'll be my heaven.

and i'll live in with my god.

...

You are my one and only one.

You are my wish come true.

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WhaT we miSs

A walk in rain.
Laze gaze on green lawn.
Moon lit night.
Watching sunset.
looking into the blue sky.
seeing your inner being.
A cup of coffee.
Dash of chocolate.
Scent of new book.
Friend's loving look.
a forehead kiss.
hands on strings.
silly fights.
random walks.
These all are ' the bliss',
We often miss.

If you didnt feel it yet,
My dear.I pity.
Oh why should I?
Lot of chances still awaits.
Its there for us.
A heart to feel,
Thats all we need.
To feel the life,
To be alive.

An emotional orphan

You know what it means?
You have an address ,
Yet no addresse to adress
You remain as no one amid them.
You retain nothing, not even your likes

... .....

Heck of advice hang about,

Lot of complaints roam around,

Conditions surround and chaos is for sure.

Dont ask for any help. better dont be- i assure.

As that is a sin, a ruthless offense.

That is what i think-

And all holy thing they mean.

...... ....

They greet you with silence,

when you crave to hear some words.

They treat you like futile.

When you do die for care.

They tie you head to toe.

When your wings desire to soar.

..... ....

"Keep it on you mind

Hold fast on your path.

You are unseen always

Until you can prove you.

They are here to follow

As you are here to lead".

Sleep....

Sleep , my refuge, my resort, my support.
Like a friend you secured my secrets so old,
Like a mom you heard all stories I told.

You were there when I need you
and you streched out your arms .
You are here with your shoulder
When I need someone to lean on.

.....

You sang all those lullabies,

which is only known to fairies.
You whispered all those secrets,
all that dreams can only realize.

......

I was smashed, I yearned, I drowned

You were there in my side as a comrade.
and you secured all my tears.
I kicked, I stabbed , I got wild
To get rid of my fears
You stood for my part.
and you shared all my cares.

......
Sleep... my dear, do bless
Kiss me on my eyes.
Take me on your wings.
Let my soul to sing.

9 Tips in Life that Lead to Happiness

Are you truly happy? Do you even know what it means to be happy and what it takes to achieve happiness? These are important questions foranyone who is seeking happiness to ask themselves. I live my life to maintain my own happiness while trying my best to not cause unhappiness to anyone else. If you want to be happy you need to understand that you can be happy and that you should be happy. Many people make the mistake of believing that they don't deserve happiness and accept their unhappy state as their destiny. The truth of the matter is that happiness, like anything else in life, needs to benurtured. The following are a few tips that I follow to create happiness in my life.

Understand what it is that will make you happy. Everyone has unique requirements for attaining happiness and what makes one person happy may be very different from what makes someone else happy. Revel in your individuality and do not worry about whether or not your desires are comparable to those of your peers.

Make a plan for attaining goals that you believe will make you happy.Your mood will very likely increase as your pursue your goal because you will feel better about yourself for going after something you value.

Surround yourself with happy people. It is easy to begin to think negatively when you are surrounded by people who think that way.Conversely, if you are around people who are happy their emotional state will be infectious.

When something goes wrong try to figure out a solution instead of wallowing in self pity. Truly happy people don't allow set backs to affect their mood because they know that with a little thought they can turn the circumstances back to their favor.

Spend a few minutes each day thinking about the things that make you happy. These few minutes will give you the opportunity to focus on the positive things in your life and will lead you to continued happiness.It's also important to take some time each day to do something nice for yourself. Whether you treat yourself to lunch, take a long,relaxing bath or simply spend a few extra minutes on your appearanceyou will be subconsciously putting yourself in a better mood.

Finding the humor in situations can also lead to happiness. While there are times that require you to be serious, when it is appropriate, find a way to make light of a situation that would otherwise make you unhappy.

Maintaining your health is another way to achieve happiness. Being overweight or not eating nutritious foods can have a negative effect on your mood. Additionally, exercise has been known to release endorphins that give you a feeling of happiness.

Finally, it is important to understand that you deserve happiness.Those who believe that they are not worthy of happiness may subconsciously sabotage their efforts to achieve happiness. If necessary, tell yourself each day that you deserve to be happy and remind yourself what steps you will take to achieve the happiness you desire.

Happiness is hard to define but most people are aware of whether they are happy or not. Many people believe that happiness is a form of luck and that some people are destined to be happy while others are destined to be unhappy. I try to incorporate the tips above into my life and have had great success in achieving happiness. The tips in this article are small but meaningful steps that you can take each day to lead you to true happiness.

Do You Know How To Really Forgive Someone?

The Problem with Not Forgiving

Most people have at least one person in their life that they harbor anger against for some reason or another. For some the anger is due to a serious hurt, whether physical or emotional, such as assault or abuse. For others the anger stems from less important issues, but the anger is just as real and just as debilitating. For instance the resentment that can build up in a relationship over many years over many small and large differences. For some, maybe it is a co-worker that angers you, they ask too much of you, they sabotage you, or they just annoy you.

Why do we hold onto anger? At it's root, it's because we want to hurt that person back. The problem with this strategy is that it doesn't hurt the intended. It only hurts us. Think about it. Can you be happy when you are angry? Have you ever noticed that you have more accident sthe more angry you are? So how do you get rid of this anger? By forgiving.

The Problem with Forgiving

If forgiving is the answer to releasing your anger, why don't we do it? Well, because forgiving someone is hard! Another reason is that we don't know how to do it properly. And then there is the fear that by forgiving someone we are inviting them to hurt us again or that we are saying what they did was ok.

How to Really Forgive Someone

1)Examine Your Anger - Take some time to understand your anger. It's easy to say, "Well I just hate that person" or "That person drives me crazy." For some the reason for the anger is very clear as in the case of assault, for instance. But other times, the root of our anger is not so clear. Why does this person "bug you?" Why do you get angry at your boss? Why do you flip out when your spouse parks the car "the wrong way." The reason it is important to understand your anger is that if you identify clearly what the root is, then you can go about finding a possible solution. This doesn't work in all cases. But try this first anyway. Then ask yourself what can YOU do to make the situation better? If it's about trying to change a person, the only way to really impact a person is to love them, praise them and continually discover and focus on the good in that person. This takestime, but try it!! It really works. If it's an intolerable situation and you can't ignore it, find a way to not be around this person.

2) "Thank You for This Experience." Have you ever noticed how good can spring up from bad experiences? Just like after a forest fire the first thing you see is lots of little green plants starting to grow.What did you learn about your inner strength from your negativeexperience? What did you learn about yourself that has made you a stronger person? This doesn't make wrongs against you right. But it puts you back in the position of power, not victimhood. Remember, you have survived. Build on that! And little by little explore where you see small bits of green sprouting up in your life. Focus on that, have gratitude for that good, and you will be in the process of forgiving.

3) Relationship Resentment -Let it Go: Advice from the book "FollowYour Heart" by Andrew Matthews (one of my favorite books) is brilliant. In his book he talks about how we make up rules for how others should behave. If they don't behave that way, we make them"guilty" and we hold a grudge. But does it change the situation? No.All it does it "ruin our lives!" He uses humor to make a good point,"When a seagull craps on your head, do you resent the seagull?" Do you resent the weather when it rains? So why resent people?

Whatever the "guilty party" got wrong, it is history. The question is,"Do you want your life to work or don't you." And he also takes on the hard situations too. For instance, he a friend who found forgiveness after having his 3 teenage daughters murdered. It wasn't easy, but in the end he realized that only he had control over how he moved forward with his life. He didn't want his life to be miserable so he "let goof anger" for his "own sake and his own survival."

4) Meditate on Compassion: Imagine your antagonist as a baby. What has been their life? Why do they act in ways that hurt you or others? If you can find a small place of compassion, of understanding, then perhaps in seeing them as a victim of their circumstances, you may find a place of peace about what happened. Buddhism says: "for the victimizer is, truly, the most unfortunate of all."Â Buddhism urges us to focus on loving-kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy, and equanimity as "a means for avoiding resentment in the first place.

"The Dalia Lama lives a life of forgiveness in action. The book, "The Wisdom of Forgiveness" gives an account his life in this regard. Again this doesn't make crimes committed right. This doesn't mean that you should necessarily befriend a person who hurt you or that you shouldtake your guard down in protecting yourself from a dangerous person.But if you can find a place where you can wish for their healing, you will find your own healing. If this doesn't work, move onto #5.

5) Turn it over to God: Put your trust in God that God will take careof this situation in the long run. God will provide you strength. Godwill bring justice in the end. And hopefully God will heal theoffender too. Take comfort in God's love for you.


6) If you don't believe in God, then at least know that in science all things eventually come to equilibrium. And so, turn it over to the universe. Turn it over to your friends' and family's love for you.Allow yourself to be comforted and strengthened by their love.

7) Write it Down. Take all these suggestions and journal about your feelings and then write down the answers to the questions: How will I forgive? What will I gain by forgiving? What is the good in all this?What have I learned? How will my life be better by forgiving?

What Have You Got to Lose? - Only Peace

Who are you holding resentment against? Who are you angry at? Who do you hate? Do you want release from this heavy yoke around your heart?Do you want peace and happiness? Try forgiveness… for your sake. Take it slow. It is a process. Over time you can watch your anger melt. TheDalai Lama is said to have the heart health of a 20 year old according to his doctors. Why is that? Perhaps it just might be that he holds no anger. Imagine what it could do for you!

Please share your comments, experiences, and tips on Forgiveness! All comments big and small are very welcomed!