where did february go??

Damn... where did february go? I jus turned around and its' gone!!![ also this flipping blogger just ate some of my post] . It may be the reason why I dont update as often as I could. Blessed thing.Perhaps a Fairy will come by to helpout me in blogging.

okay, what did I have to say about my february... something about having 'law of inertia' and having lot of dreams to realise. I have been sitting empty headed for a quiet long time but still I did something which help my dreams I know.

I have charted out some resolutions( I belive in montly resolutions rather that yearly ones)
so here comes my resolutions
I decided-

* To react nicely to all those angry, irritated , fussy Faces around me.
*To be persistant. act g3 act. Action is your keyword while following dreams.
*To engage only( i emphasise only) in non-toxic arguments
*To not surrender my creative urge to write on blogs when i see blessed technical alerts in blog like "cud not contact blogger.com. saving and publishing may fail. Retrying..."

only this for march.

I love my Life.

Everyday

You are still there
everyday.

you are still bending over,
backwards,
forwards,
everyway you can.

Just to make it happen.
Just so one day.
may be
you will set yourself free.

Those were The Days...

I remember the school.
I remember good stuff.
I remember bad stuff.

I remember that time I took a beating' cause i was
smaller than the other guy and he could.
I remember the day when I accidently called my science teacher "amma"
I remember the hardships I used to face for no reasons at all.
I remember that time when i was 10 and that next-door-oldie tried to feel me up .
I remember being bold enough to slap that man.
I remember being too scared to adress the crowd.


If I knew then , what I know now, things would
have turned out quite different.
But If I knew then what I know now, I would not be
the girl I am today

food for thoughts in difficulties

* Do manage you situations. don't let yourself to be managed by situations.
* Think about your wonderful memories , affirm yorself that this situation wont last forever and it is just a passing cloud. ( tommorow this problem will pave way for other problems know? wink)
*Dont ,Please dont let this problem to create more problem in other phase of life. Ex-Dont let personal problem to create flaws in your work. -Dont mix up things-. otherwise you will be tangled by more and more problems.
more points will be added...

advantages of being a guy than a girl.

1- they can piss anywhere, even in road side( this point is the real motivation of this post)
2- if they flirt around, society is more likely to accept that fact with a it-happens attitude.
3- they can enjoy more freedom , both from home and society.
4 they have no fear of being raped, even if it happened they wont get pregnent.
5- they can show their enjoyment by removing their shirt when india wins the game.
6- Their arrogance, irritation and anger would be accepted by society more easily.
more points will be added by author lately..

g3 joke

"what is the different between stubborness and determination"? g3 asked.
" when you are doing something your way and succeed, that is determination" her soul repiled.
" when you do something your way and you failed, that's stubborness." her soul chuckled back.

Why are you troubled?

My heart why are you troubled?

Why is these darkness all around?

Why do you search for something that's

Never to be found?

Why do you cherish each bit of sunlight

and every moment filled with glee?

Why there is a lonely feeling?

Why is it I, myself and me?

How long will you run and hide?

How long will you pretend?

How far is your destiny?

When will these journey end???

LOVE....

"I love him but I cant call me as a lover". my heart wants to know why?
"You love him but you are not love"- soul replied.

"Be love. submit yourself to the trance of love, unconditionally . forget your self , forget the world. Dont count. Dont hesitate.. be free. free yourself in the hands of love then the cosmic soul will reveal the truth, the ultimate truth- the joy of being love itself. Then it radiates... when it shines, flaws vanish..when it whispers, you forget every pain"- soul adds

then it whispers-if you are in love , you may argue. from the moment you become love.. no more complaints wil be there .no more doubts no more conditions exist.nothing can bother you then. you just indulge in immense ecstacy. you will become ' eternal ecstacy'. your soul rests in total harmony.better be love than being in love.
be love .. be love! my soul sings again and again.

In the fond memory of a broken love..

On those early hours of morning,

when I awake half sleepy,

where blanket can't help me from the cold

and again his thought haunts me ...

and moreover, his love haunts me like a painful dream,

tears roll down like that shine like sharp piercing crystals of memories

in the early rays of sun. I am trying another day to forget those moments.

still... again and again.. his memories rushes in.. know y?

coz it is love.. in all true sense..

but intense love often hurts.. first it gives everything. later it retain nothing for us. It makes us to know each other to keep us far way. It shower dreams to shatter it later. It fills hopes in eyes to replace it with tears then.

When I had looked up at the sky before, I could see only romantic blue and feel the cool breeze.Nor did I notice those dark clouds. Nor did I expect that the breeze would turn into hurricanes. When I saw those twinkling stars, never did I notice that it was dark around like how the sky never was nor did I expect that I would be left in darkness one day, like how I failed to notice those thorns in roses.We only see the beauty in everything when we are in love, we know the darker side in fact but we dont care for it purposly.

I did love red rose once, so were those red rose which accompanied divine love but as I told before all the beautiful things pain me with his memories. I started avoiding those beautiful things like how my life lost it charm when he went away. I plead , I begged.. but my words are of no value now. It magnified my emotions once. But a million words couldnt bring him back. I know as I tried infinite times. my words worth nothing when the one who loved it once cares it no more. even a billion listners cannot compensate for that single listner.

Is it better to hate than love?(sometimes I doubt)- we hardly moist our eyes for one whom we hate but tear rolls out for love! An enemy ofcourse understand our hatred and hate us more than we hate them but a love fails to give back even a drop of love we gave... But still my dear, tears shed in love worth lot more than those empty plastic smiles devoid of love.

Sometimes I feel we shouldnt love some until we get them forever( quite bizzare). Why should we fetch our heart with despair and eyes with tears in those fond memories? Why should those tender dewdrops and cool breeze pain us in deep? Why should those rainy days make us feel all alone? Why should we hate to look up at the stars and roses? Why shoud we make ourselves hate all those beautiful thing once longed to be in the sight always? Yet, to be in love and to be loved, can give a bouquet of lovely memories that lingers it fragrance forever.

To my ' one and "only one" @ life.com

...

In the journey Iam on

You are my 'one'

Yea, my one and only 'one'

........

When sun shine on top

I will be your shade.

When troubles do unfold.

I will be on your side.

...........

When you hold my hand

I know, you are the 'one'

Yea my one and only one

...

When I close my eyes.

Its only you stands there.

We we'll build life together.

We 'll share same roof

and it'll be my heaven.

and i'll live in with my god.

...

You are my one and only one.

You are my wish come true.

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WhaT we miSs

A walk in rain.
Laze gaze on green lawn.
Moon lit night.
Watching sunset.
looking into the blue sky.
seeing your inner being.
A cup of coffee.
Dash of chocolate.
Scent of new book.
Friend's loving look.
a forehead kiss.
hands on strings.
silly fights.
random walks.
These all are ' the bliss',
We often miss.

If you didnt feel it yet,
My dear.I pity.
Oh why should I?
Lot of chances still awaits.
Its there for us.
A heart to feel,
Thats all we need.
To feel the life,
To be alive.

An emotional orphan

You know what it means?
You have an address ,
Yet no addresse to adress
You remain as no one amid them.
You retain nothing, not even your likes

... .....

Heck of advice hang about,

Lot of complaints roam around,

Conditions surround and chaos is for sure.

Dont ask for any help. better dont be- i assure.

As that is a sin, a ruthless offense.

That is what i think-

And all holy thing they mean.

...... ....

They greet you with silence,

when you crave to hear some words.

They treat you like futile.

When you do die for care.

They tie you head to toe.

When your wings desire to soar.

..... ....

"Keep it on you mind

Hold fast on your path.

You are unseen always

Until you can prove you.

They are here to follow

As you are here to lead".

Sleep....

Sleep , my refuge, my resort, my support.
Like a friend you secured my secrets so old,
Like a mom you heard all stories I told.

You were there when I need you
and you streched out your arms .
You are here with your shoulder
When I need someone to lean on.

.....

You sang all those lullabies,

which is only known to fairies.
You whispered all those secrets,
all that dreams can only realize.

......

I was smashed, I yearned, I drowned

You were there in my side as a comrade.
and you secured all my tears.
I kicked, I stabbed , I got wild
To get rid of my fears
You stood for my part.
and you shared all my cares.

......
Sleep... my dear, do bless
Kiss me on my eyes.
Take me on your wings.
Let my soul to sing.